Coming Home
If you ever wondered what really goes on inside my pretty little head, read my post over at IzzyMom.
It’s one I wrote about a year ago that was well-received by readers but for some reason, had been unpublished. I have no idea why.
Today I got the coolest email from someone who had read that post and bookmarked it, only to find that it was no longer there. She inquired about it and asked if it was still available.
She paid me/my post some compliments that made me feel so good and I was so happy that something I had written had resonated to the degree that someone would ask about it in it’s absence.
I found the post in question. I read it. It still felt real and true. I could still relate to it.
And suddenly I was inspired. I don’t want to just dump my disjointed thoughts into a text editor. I want to write again. Whether I will, I don’t know, but at least the flesh is willing…
I republished this post for Sarah and for me. And it was like coming home.
Desert Songbird on 15 Jan 2010 at 4:58 pm #
I don’t think it’s a question of having a bad life now; in fact, I tend to think of it as the opposite. I live a very comfortable life. It is filled with its own drama that comes from a marriage that has endured for nigh on 20 years and with having a teenager and a pre-pubescent child. It comes from the very mundane-ness and ordinary-ness of life, too. I don’t necessarily miss all of the drama and angst of those things from my wild days, but I miss…the experiences: the fun, the “what’s happening now or next?,” the thrill of not having to answer to anyone or caring about who thinks what. I don’t think most of us of this age would trade our lives, but we’d like to have one more experience like that. As long as we didn’t have to worry about feeling hungover, achey, tired, or guilty the next morning. *grin*
Desert Songbird’s last blog post..Aging Ruminations/EDITED TO ADD
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The Caffeinatrix replied:
January 17th, 2010 at 12:33 am
Yes, that about sums it up…although I’m not sure just one more experience would be enough :)
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One of The Guys on 31 Mar 2010 at 4:58 pm #
I left you a comment over at Izzy Mom. Very cool post. Resonated with me and I guess a lot of people.
I’m very happy where I’m at, but I certainly miss some of the things you mentioned.
However, when I look back at how it really was, and really try to remember it all, it doesn’t seem quite as romantic.
Great writing by the way!
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